It's amazing how behind I have fallen on Household chores over the past few year. Yeah I definitely mean not days, not months but years. For example I cleaned the refrigerator yesterday and my ketchup expired in . . . drum roll please . . . July of 2011!!! In fact practical all my condiments, excluding the Franks Red Hot Sauce that I put on everything, expired years ago. Thankfully I have not killed anyone with old salad dressing or mutant relish.
I am amazed at how much there is to do around a small apartment inhabited only by myself and an adorable orange cat. Over the past few years I've struggle to keep up with all that should be done in the world of household management. That's one part because I spend a lot of time running from place to place. Then another because I just haven't been motivated when I do get come home after long days and deep clean like a maniac.
So now that I do have time I have to admit that I am enjoying the task of restoring order from chaos. I like doing things that have a definite end. Where you can take a step back and look across the work and say I did that today. Granted something like cleaning my own fridge or vacuuming the floor aren't great works that will alter mankind's history. Those aren't jobs that will never need to be done again but for now at least they are complete and that's something.
There can be joy in work. Is there toil in it yes, but there should be joy too. I think sometimes about Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden before sin. It wasn't like they just lounged around the place working on their tans, God gave them work. They had the work of tending the garden and we know Adam also had the task of naming all the animals. Talk about a long day!!! How would you feel looking at a platypus and wondering what in tarnation do I call this little guy? The difference was without sin work was a delight because it was simply glorifying God by keeping His commands.
I truly believe that work even after the fall can still be a delight. I am seeking ways to do that now without an official job. To do that I am specifically seeking to obey the command "Whatever you do in word or deed do all to the glory of God" I struggled a lot with that in the corporate setting because I didn't have time to really think about the Lord and didn't do a good job keeping Him as my focus in the midst of the tasks I had there. At home I have been able to renew that focus, to spend time meditating on Him and his word. I have also had to trust more fully that He is able to guide me, protect me and supply the needs I have from His abundance.
I am thankful to have time to catch-up to do work that I have put off for quite sometime and to learn to delight in it. Not to find joy in the work because of a paycheck or because the work itself is glorious but because its an opportunity to do something for His glory.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
New Adventure!
So it has been a very long time since I've sat down to type an entry into this Blog. . . So long in fact that I needed to look up the Blog address to find it again and reset the password since the last one had time to flee into the deep recesses of my mind never to be thought of again. I am here with a purpose. Today is both an end and a new beginning.
Have you ever had a day when you woke up and wondered how did I get here? Thought with all the dreams, desires and ambitions I have how did I end up living this life? I've had those mornings a lot over the past few years. Most days just sweeping those thoughts aside and replace them with the resolve to just do what needs to be done. Some days letting those thoughts fester and make me feel trapped and alone and lost. Finally today after much thought and prayer I decided to stop. To stop living a life that isn't my own.
Long story short after 7 years 11 months and 4 days I quit my job. It has never been a job I loved, it wasn't a job that was supposed to last longer than a year or two, it was a job I took when I was told I needed to have a "real" job and it became a job that I eventually dreaded. It was also a job where I made some incredible friends who are so much like family, where there were good memories that will stick in my heart forever and where I spent time learning that even in the midst of hardships there is always joy too.
Of course now I find myself without a job, and in this economy a few people I've talked to have been horrified at my willingness to be "unemployed", but I also find myself "smiling at the future" I have savings set aside to "buy" some time. I quickly learned the thrill of Craigslist, asking myself at the moment of my first sale is that a murderer I see through my peephole or just a man looking to pay for his new rocking chair? I've had offers of spare rooms from dear friends (I'll be moving back home with my mom in March!!) I've had offers for babysitting jobs, and other interesting opportunities. And of course grand schemes rolling through my head.
This decision hasn't been an easy one to make, mostly because I haven't trusted that the Lord would provide. It's been clear in my mind for a long time that I don't belong in corporate America, that the goals and tasks that are a part of a corporation don't line up with the talents I've been given and am called to use, but giving up the security of a good paying job and taking the first steps towards living abundantly was hard. However now that the first step has been made there is a joy and excitement in me that I have not felt in a long time. I stand on the brink of what I believe will be a great adventure. In order to include those of you who love me and want to know what's going on or those of you who may just be curious about what this lunatic is going to do I plan to write about what happens next. I covet your prayers!!
Have you ever had a day when you woke up and wondered how did I get here? Thought with all the dreams, desires and ambitions I have how did I end up living this life? I've had those mornings a lot over the past few years. Most days just sweeping those thoughts aside and replace them with the resolve to just do what needs to be done. Some days letting those thoughts fester and make me feel trapped and alone and lost. Finally today after much thought and prayer I decided to stop. To stop living a life that isn't my own.
Long story short after 7 years 11 months and 4 days I quit my job. It has never been a job I loved, it wasn't a job that was supposed to last longer than a year or two, it was a job I took when I was told I needed to have a "real" job and it became a job that I eventually dreaded. It was also a job where I made some incredible friends who are so much like family, where there were good memories that will stick in my heart forever and where I spent time learning that even in the midst of hardships there is always joy too.
Of course now I find myself without a job, and in this economy a few people I've talked to have been horrified at my willingness to be "unemployed", but I also find myself "smiling at the future" I have savings set aside to "buy" some time. I quickly learned the thrill of Craigslist, asking myself at the moment of my first sale is that a murderer I see through my peephole or just a man looking to pay for his new rocking chair? I've had offers of spare rooms from dear friends (I'll be moving back home with my mom in March!!) I've had offers for babysitting jobs, and other interesting opportunities. And of course grand schemes rolling through my head.
This decision hasn't been an easy one to make, mostly because I haven't trusted that the Lord would provide. It's been clear in my mind for a long time that I don't belong in corporate America, that the goals and tasks that are a part of a corporation don't line up with the talents I've been given and am called to use, but giving up the security of a good paying job and taking the first steps towards living abundantly was hard. However now that the first step has been made there is a joy and excitement in me that I have not felt in a long time. I stand on the brink of what I believe will be a great adventure. In order to include those of you who love me and want to know what's going on or those of you who may just be curious about what this lunatic is going to do I plan to write about what happens next. I covet your prayers!!
Monday, August 22, 2011
Looking up
So with this whole "Thankfulness List" one thing I've noticed myself doing is looking up a lot more. The Psalmist writes that "the heavens declare the glory of God" and it's amazing how true that is. In looking up I've seen sunsets that the most talented human artist couldn't portray with all the paint in the world. Even a photographer couldn't capture the changing colors as the sun sinks below the horizon and a videographer could not replicate the grandeur of an entire sky. I've seen the sunrise pour light into a sleeping world wakening the deep green of trees and causing the still water to glisten. I've seen that perfect blue of a clear afternoon with the softest white clouds. I've seen stars beyond number that remind of God's promise to Abraham. I've seen the peaceful sky split by lightening showing the power of the Almighty God that ordains the path of that incredible bolt.
There's so much that can be seen looking up. So much that can cause a heart ot wonder. When I consider that underneath that sky I am but a speck and yet the Lord who paints the sky came and lived looking up at it Himself. He came and died as the sun He created and set it that sky was covered in darkeness. He came in humility to pay the price for my sinful rebellion. The thought that the God who made a sky that declares His glory so clearly chose to love me even though I fail to declare His glory so often fills my heart with thankfulness and wonder.
There's so much that can be seen looking up. So much that can cause a heart ot wonder. When I consider that underneath that sky I am but a speck and yet the Lord who paints the sky came and lived looking up at it Himself. He came and died as the sun He created and set it that sky was covered in darkeness. He came in humility to pay the price for my sinful rebellion. The thought that the God who made a sky that declares His glory so clearly chose to love me even though I fail to declare His glory so often fills my heart with thankfulness and wonder.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Multi-tasking Fail :)
Ha ha so I've been sitting here for a bit thinking about what to write as an intro to this edition of "The List" and I've discovered writer's block :) It probably wasn't a great idea to Blog while watching Psych, or while listening to Pandora, or while going through old pictures for a video project. So rather than turn of the radio and focus (I can't pause a good song) Here's today's portion of the list without introduction :)
566. Sound of volleyball hits
567. Nakita visits
568. Joy running free
569. Little girl balancing on a curb
570. White blossoms
571. Clutched baby hands
572. Rusty tool boxes
573. Garbage bags with handles
574. The explaination of love in 1 Corinthians 13
575. Worn pewter
576. Bent paper clips
577. Basil flavored olive oil
578. Imitation crab
579. Thick blades of grass with separated puddles of glistening dew
580. Water condensing on a cold glass
581. Frayed edges of fabric
582. Orange mini flower pots
583. Being reminded to be thankful
584. Zesty Onion ring dip
585. Winding roads
586. Old maps
587. Bright Red garage doors
588. Funnel Cake
589. White edged leaves
590. Solomon's accents
591. Talented Acrobats
592. Siberian tigers
593. Organic Nighty night tea with lime and honey
594. Philly Cheesesteak
595. Electric outlets
596. Yellow plums
597. Asiago pretzel toasted in a Panini press
598. Raspberry mocha with whipped cream
599. Copper colored tile floors
600. Lake Erie filling the horizon
601. Clydesdale horses with braided manes
602. Cardboard cup sleeve
603. Reflexes
566. Sound of volleyball hits
567. Nakita visits
568. Joy running free
569. Little girl balancing on a curb
570. White blossoms
571. Clutched baby hands
572. Rusty tool boxes
573. Garbage bags with handles
574. The explaination of love in 1 Corinthians 13
575. Worn pewter
576. Bent paper clips
577. Basil flavored olive oil
578. Imitation crab
579. Thick blades of grass with separated puddles of glistening dew
580. Water condensing on a cold glass
581. Frayed edges of fabric
582. Orange mini flower pots
583. Being reminded to be thankful
584. Zesty Onion ring dip
585. Winding roads
586. Old maps
587. Bright Red garage doors
588. Funnel Cake
589. White edged leaves
590. Solomon's accents
591. Talented Acrobats
592. Siberian tigers
593. Organic Nighty night tea with lime and honey
594. Philly Cheesesteak
595. Electric outlets
596. Yellow plums
597. Asiago pretzel toasted in a Panini press
598. Raspberry mocha with whipped cream
599. Copper colored tile floors
600. Lake Erie filling the horizon
601. Clydesdale horses with braided manes
602. Cardboard cup sleeve
603. Reflexes
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Glimpses of Eternity
Today is laundry day :) Usually Mondays are laundry day, but Monday was crazy busy and thus Thursday is now invaded with laundry. I must say I'm not the best at keeping up with chores laundry included I just seem to be an expert at coming up with a wide variety of other things to stand gaurd between me and those mundane chores that manage eventually to pile up to the point that they can no longer be ignored. Even though I don't exactly enjoy doing laundry there is that moment when I open the dryer door and the scent of lavendar fabric softener fills my breath and I reach in a drawn out the soft, clean pile of warm clothing that is just blissful. . . when noticed. It's amazing how many moments there are in the middle of the most usual activities that when seen as planned gifts from a loving Lord are glimpses of eternity.
534. Heart shaped leaf
535. Iron supplements
536. Janitors
537. Colored pencils
538. Harmonicas
539. Curry Powder
540. Pillows
541. Golden skies
542. Unexpected encouraging words
543. Pink edges on ominous gray clouds
544. V8 Juice
545. Invitations
546. Carved wood
547. Purple glass
548. Distant stars
549. Globular clusters
550. Being able to picture funny things described by others
551. Mosaic designs
552. Whispering wind
553. Remembering to look up
554. Stranger who gave me a coupon for bleach\
555. BJ's Samples
556. Kosher salt
557. Handwritten letters
558. Warm laundry
559. Comfy sandals
560. Mommy pretending to garden during stealth operations
561. Fresh squeezed lime juice
562. Having the same ringtone as someone nearby
563. Shared recipes
564. Friends who are like family
565. Compassion
534. Heart shaped leaf
535. Iron supplements
536. Janitors
537. Colored pencils
538. Harmonicas
539. Curry Powder
540. Pillows
541. Golden skies
542. Unexpected encouraging words
543. Pink edges on ominous gray clouds
544. V8 Juice
545. Invitations
546. Carved wood
547. Purple glass
548. Distant stars
549. Globular clusters
550. Being able to picture funny things described by others
551. Mosaic designs
552. Whispering wind
553. Remembering to look up
554. Stranger who gave me a coupon for bleach\
555. BJ's Samples
556. Kosher salt
557. Handwritten letters
558. Warm laundry
559. Comfy sandals
560. Mommy pretending to garden during stealth operations
561. Fresh squeezed lime juice
562. Having the same ringtone as someone nearby
563. Shared recipes
564. Friends who are like family
565. Compassion
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Confessions of an Information Junkie
Those of you who know me probably know that I am an information junkie. I like to know stuff and living at this point in history means that if there's something I decide I want to know I can just Google it. And of course I am constantly Googling things like where certain words come from, what major battles were turning points in wars fought long ago, why napping at work is beneficial, and an abundance of other things. Spending a week at camp last month without my phone on I didn't miss Facebook or texting or any of that social networking stuff, I missed having answers at my finger tips.
The thing is in this life There are things that happen with out a clear reason why. And it's so tempting to think that we need answers, to believe that we have to know why in order to accept the trial. However the Lord doesn't always tell us the why behind what He does. He calls us instead to trust that He knows what He is doing.
Deuteronomy 29:29 says "The secret things belong unto the LORD our God: but those things which are revealed belong unto us and to our children for ever, that we may do all the words of this law." We won't always know why, we often won't know why because the secret things belong to the Lord, but we can trust Him in those things because He is OUR God. The Lord does not always let us see the reasons why hard times come, but He promises to love His people and we can trust the reasons why to Him. Our part is to continue to walk obediently in the things He has revealed to us. Sometimes even the information junkie has to lay aside the need for answers and rest in the arms of the Almighty God who is the only thing we really need.
506. Freckles
507. Mud covered monster truck
508. Viking blue bridges
509. Astro Van
510. Becker blue bottles
511. Finger nails
512. Firm grasp
513. Whales
514. Being fearfully and wonderfully made
515. Knitting together
516. People of God
517. Cluttered tables
518. Overflowing bookcases
519. Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me
520. Orange tomatoes
521. Light reflecting of the guitar
522. Tuned strings
523. Thumb tacks
524. Beads
525. Slivered Moon
526. Xylophone
527. Magazine clippings
528. Juicy sweet watermelon
529. Fancy cheese
530. Guitar guys
531. God's protection
532. The waves and winds still know His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below
533. "I will be your God and you will be My people"
The thing is in this life There are things that happen with out a clear reason why. And it's so tempting to think that we need answers, to believe that we have to know why in order to accept the trial. However the Lord doesn't always tell us the why behind what He does. He calls us instead to trust that He knows what He is doing.
Deuteronomy 29:29 says "The secret things belong unto the LORD our God: but those things which are revealed belong unto us and to our children for ever, that we may do all the words of this law." We won't always know why, we often won't know why because the secret things belong to the Lord, but we can trust Him in those things because He is OUR God. The Lord does not always let us see the reasons why hard times come, but He promises to love His people and we can trust the reasons why to Him. Our part is to continue to walk obediently in the things He has revealed to us. Sometimes even the information junkie has to lay aside the need for answers and rest in the arms of the Almighty God who is the only thing we really need.
506. Freckles
507. Mud covered monster truck
508. Viking blue bridges
509. Astro Van
510. Becker blue bottles
511. Finger nails
512. Firm grasp
513. Whales
514. Being fearfully and wonderfully made
515. Knitting together
516. People of God
517. Cluttered tables
518. Overflowing bookcases
519. Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me
520. Orange tomatoes
521. Light reflecting of the guitar
522. Tuned strings
523. Thumb tacks
524. Beads
525. Slivered Moon
526. Xylophone
527. Magazine clippings
528. Juicy sweet watermelon
529. Fancy cheese
530. Guitar guys
531. God's protection
532. The waves and winds still know His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below
533. "I will be your God and you will be My people"
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Half-way
So if the goal is 1,000 gifts then with today's entry I am more than half way there. It really hasn't taken very long for this list to grow and it's already helped me focus so much more on the Lord who pours out blessings in abudence. I saw a shirt at Kingdom Bound this weekend with a picture of the lucky charms cereal guy on it that said "I'm not lucky or charmed I'm blessed" How true that is, the good things in my life have a source they're not the result of random chance, magic spells or karma they're result of a loving Father looking at me and saying "This is the good I'm going to do because I love you" Sometimes those good things are easily identifiable and sometimes the things that are best for me hurt, but all of it comes from a God who loves me and is drawing me more and more to Himself.
419. Wikipedia
420. Coffee lids
421. Storm Clouds clearing
422. Finding the way
423. Scenic detours
424. Antique cars
425. Celtic Music
426. Bagpipes
427. Cellos
428. Sliced Tomato
429. Smell of bacon
430. Knowing God hears
431. French Celtic music
432. Light times
433. Eyes to see Your praises
434. Dew covered grass
435. Sunlight streaming through thick woods
436. Being able to read
437. Rhythm of a beating heart
438. Accountability
439. Meeting goals
440. Swedish fish
441. 8 o'clock team arriving
442. Backyard Fire pits
443. Kiddie pools
444. Pasta salad with radiator noodles
445. Cumin
446. Adjectives
447. Crunchy celery
448. Slap bracelets
449. White thread
450. Green springy decorations
451. Jean capris
452. Cargo pockets
453. Buttons
454. Baby blue shirts
455. "The only thing that's good in me is Jesus"
456. Church picnic
457. Lilies overwhelming the traffic circle
458. Koinania
459. Stone quarries
460. Babbling brooke
461. Tents
462. Up close thunder and lightening
463. Mist
464. Sculpted fountains
465. Free flip flops
466. Everything bagels
467. Free Monk bread
468. Walkie Talkie guy
469. Carousel horses
470. Cobblestones
471. Gardeners
472. Clean showers
473. Drinking rain water
474. Sign language interepreters
475. Running into old friends
476. Seeing VBS kids who are all grown up and are still serving the Lord
477. Oreo ice cream
478. Ice cold water
479. Sun Showers
480. Tote bags
481. Flood lights
482. Bands warming up
483. Making melody
484. Conga drums
485. In-line skater ministry
486. Berets
487. Penguin stickers
488. Raised hands
489. "Better is one day in Your courts than thousands elsewhere"
490. Wristbands
491. Sea lions
492. Various gifts
493. "This is where the healing begins"
494. "It's not about what I've done, but what's been done for me"
495. "You must be really bad because Jesus had to die for you, but you must be really loved because Jesus cared enough to die for you"
496. "You are who You are no matter where I am"
497. Safe travels
498. Being born where the truth is
499. Blisters that show full days
500. My own bed
501. "I'm not lucky or charmed I'm blessed"
502. Artichokes
503. Velcro
504. Well played violins
505. Afternoon coffee
419. Wikipedia
420. Coffee lids
421. Storm Clouds clearing
422. Finding the way
423. Scenic detours
424. Antique cars
425. Celtic Music
426. Bagpipes
427. Cellos
428. Sliced Tomato
429. Smell of bacon
430. Knowing God hears
431. French Celtic music
432. Light times
433. Eyes to see Your praises
434. Dew covered grass
435. Sunlight streaming through thick woods
436. Being able to read
437. Rhythm of a beating heart
438. Accountability
439. Meeting goals
440. Swedish fish
441. 8 o'clock team arriving
442. Backyard Fire pits
443. Kiddie pools
444. Pasta salad with radiator noodles
445. Cumin
446. Adjectives
447. Crunchy celery
448. Slap bracelets
449. White thread
450. Green springy decorations
451. Jean capris
452. Cargo pockets
453. Buttons
454. Baby blue shirts
455. "The only thing that's good in me is Jesus"
456. Church picnic
457. Lilies overwhelming the traffic circle
458. Koinania
459. Stone quarries
460. Babbling brooke
461. Tents
462. Up close thunder and lightening
463. Mist
464. Sculpted fountains
465. Free flip flops
466. Everything bagels
467. Free Monk bread
468. Walkie Talkie guy
469. Carousel horses
470. Cobblestones
471. Gardeners
472. Clean showers
473. Drinking rain water
474. Sign language interepreters
475. Running into old friends
476. Seeing VBS kids who are all grown up and are still serving the Lord
477. Oreo ice cream
478. Ice cold water
479. Sun Showers
480. Tote bags
481. Flood lights
482. Bands warming up
483. Making melody
484. Conga drums
485. In-line skater ministry
486. Berets
487. Penguin stickers
488. Raised hands
489. "Better is one day in Your courts than thousands elsewhere"
490. Wristbands
491. Sea lions
492. Various gifts
493. "This is where the healing begins"
494. "It's not about what I've done, but what's been done for me"
495. "You must be really bad because Jesus had to die for you, but you must be really loved because Jesus cared enough to die for you"
496. "You are who You are no matter where I am"
497. Safe travels
498. Being born where the truth is
499. Blisters that show full days
500. My own bed
501. "I'm not lucky or charmed I'm blessed"
502. Artichokes
503. Velcro
504. Well played violins
505. Afternoon coffee
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