Well I put in my first job application. . . and now begins the wait! I have never been a good waiter, not only do I spill drinks on the customers but. . . ha ha not that kind of waiter! (Sorry bad puns are hard to resist) I'm ok at waiting in lines at stores, I'm easily distracted by magazines, gum and shiny candy wrappers, but when it comes to waiting for major life events I struggle. I want to know what my plans are. I want to know what is going to happen. I want to know when its going to happen. The trouble is life doesn't work that way. There are some things in life where the timeframe and the actual events are hidden from view.
It's horrible to admit this out loud, but I was the kid who looked ahead at the last chapter of a book to make sure I was ok with the ending before I could commit to reading the chapters in between. Now as an adult I want so often to do that with the story of my own life. To look 10 or 15 years down the road and see what happened, how everything that is so unfinished now works out.
I no longer skip to the last chapter of books because I learned along the way that the stories themselves are worth the risk. Getting to know characters in a book and walk with them through whatever struggles they face is worth the chance that I may not like the ending. Meeting the turns in plot with them is more thrilling when I haven't stolen a glimpse at the ending too soon. I've learned to trust adept authors to weave a wonderful story. (Ok sometimes I still check endings if it's not an author I trust yet, but I try not too!!)
In the book of Hebrews Christ is called the Author and Finisher of our faith. If there has ever been an Author that could be trusted it is the Lord. As much as I want to skip ahead and find out what is in store for the next chapter of my life I also want to trust Him line by line, page by page to write a beautiful story. So in this page I wait for a response on this first application (of what may be many) and as I wait I learn moment my moment to simply trust Him.
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