New Adventure!

So it has been a very long time since I've sat down to type an entry into this Blog.  .    . So long in fact that I needed to look up the Blog address to find it again and reset the password since the last one had time to flee into the deep recesses of my mind never to be thought of again.  I am here with a purpose.  Today is both an end and a new beginning. 

Have you ever had a day when you woke up and wondered how did I get here?  Thought with all the dreams, desires and ambitions I have how did I end up living this life?  I've had those mornings a lot over the past few years.  Most days just sweeping those thoughts aside and replace them with the resolve to just do what needs to be done.  Some days letting those thoughts fester and make me feel trapped and alone and lost.  Finally today after much thought and prayer I decided to stop.  To stop living a life that isn't my own.  

Long story short after 7 years 11 months and 4 days I quit my job.  It has never been a job I loved,  it wasn't a job that was supposed to last longer than a year or two, it was a job I took when I was told I needed to have a "real" job and it became a job that I eventually dreaded.  It was also a job where I made some incredible friends who are so much like family,  where there were good memories that will stick in my heart forever and where I spent time learning that even in the midst of hardships there is always joy too.

Of course now I find myself without a job, and in this economy a few people I've talked to have been horrified at my willingness to be "unemployed", but I also find myself "smiling at the future"  I have savings set aside to "buy" some time.  I quickly learned the thrill of Craigslist,  asking myself at the moment of my first sale is that a murderer I see through my peephole or just a man looking to pay for his new rocking chair?  I've had offers of spare rooms from dear friends (I'll be moving back home with my mom in March!!)  I've had offers for babysitting jobs, and other interesting opportunities.  And of course grand schemes rolling through my head. 

This decision hasn't been an easy one to make, mostly because I haven't trusted that the Lord would provide.  It's been clear in my mind for a long time that I don't belong in corporate America, that the goals and tasks that are a part of a corporation don't line up with the talents I've been given and am called to use, but giving up the security of a good paying job and taking the first steps towards living abundantly was hard.  However now that the first step has been made there is a joy and excitement in me that I have not felt in a long time.  I stand on the brink of what I believe will be a great adventure.  In order to include those of you who love me and want to know what's going on or those of you who may just be curious about what this lunatic is going to do I plan to write about what happens next.   I covet your prayers!!